A New Found Fitness?!?!

During university, I put on a load of weight. Beforehand I wasn’t necessarily a gym fanatic but I certainly did a lot more than I did once I begun my new chapter at uni. It got to the point that I hate looking at the group pictures I took on my 19th birthday. My diet changed, obviously cooking for myself and only myself I naturally ate more and without having anyone to stop me I ordered a lot more takeaways.

This affected me a lot because I have always been an active person. I danced for many years both at school and at an academy. From the age of 8 until about 14, I participated in both football and athletics competing at a borough level on school teams. I took GCSE PE in year 9 and completed it in year 10 so that was two years of intense gym and various training in various sports. Even after that was over I continued dancing until year 13. I was always quite healthy and I never really had body confidence issues regarding my weight.

After seeing the pictures on my birthday I was absolutely horrified but still didn’t feel motivated enough to anything about it. I wasn’t incredibly or overtly massive but because of how fit and active I was used to being, it was hard to look at myself and not be happy with what I saw. I spent weeks being upset about it, comparing myself to all the beautiful people around me and even shutting off opportunities of talking to people and going to social events at university because it begun to affect me mentally. One day, before I came home I decided it was time to change and I started working out in my room a couple times a week.

Coming home from university has been a blessing in disguise. I’ve established a workout routine using videos from YouTube and go on runs (only once a day maximum and maintaining social distancing) on some days. Check out Rebecca Louise’s fitness videos btw! I’m eating healthier, drinking lots of water and I’m beginning to feel stronger and a lot happier mentally.

Some people want to gain weight, and some want to lose it. Some people are bigger than me and are happy and some are smaller than me and are happy. What’s important is that you’re healthy and that you are confident in your body and how you look and more importantly how you feel. It’s a journey for me. I love working out now. I love the sensation in my muscles the next day. I love seeing the progress! You’re all beautiful the way you are but sometimes a few lifestyle changes can have you feeling that little bit more amazing!

Love Always,

Shadz xo

What do I want to do within the next 365 days?

2018 has been a rollercoaster of a year. Some elements were amazing, others I have learnt valuable lessons from. Nevertheless I am blessed that I have made it successfully through another year. I have strengthened relationships in all aspects of my life, grown on a personal level and developed a whole new skill set that I never even knew existed. I still have a long way to go to reach the person I want to be but I believe that will be an everlasting journey through life.

So what do I want to achieve this year? Many set new years resolutions, and some do achieve every single one of them, and I can’t wait for the day that I meet every single person who has completely smashed those resolutions. In all honesty, I told myself last year that I would be exercising everyday, eating healthy, reading constantly and looking after my mindset everyday. In short, I haven’t done any of those to the max. Luckily for me, I recognised that those targets were perhaps a little to overboard, and not very SMART. So this year I have made targets more reachable and hopefully more relatable to what I am physically and mentally able to achieve. Here we go!

1) Pass A-Levels (with flying colours)

2) Start University!!!!!

3) Write and read more

4) Practice gratitude and general mindfulness

5) Give more

6) Save money

7) Learn to drive

8) Best to last: Spend more time with loved ones

Some of my goals are pretty personal, but others are quite general, so I hope you all can relate to them!

Happy New Year and bring on 2019!!!

Love Always,

Shadz xo