Slow Starts, Things Change

At the start of last year I set myself a number of goals. Looking back in hindsight, although some of them were reachable and I did achieve some of them, a lot of them I’m yet to achieve. The truth is last year didn’t go quite how I expected. It wasn’t awful, but I believe I built myself up to believe that I would accomplish much more than I did. I went through a long period of time that I wasn’t even writing at all, not even journalling. By the grace of God I made it into university and have started my new adventure there. However, I was determined to do so much more and reflecting on my goals for 2019 I was disappointed on how little of them I achieved. I couldn’t bear to log back into this blog, I went through some extreme writers block, I even deleted my writers Instagram page. Although I am absolutely heathly physically, in a mental and emotional sense I felt unable to pursue what I needed to pursue. This year my main goal is to write more. Or better yet, write. It’s difficult to open up and be so raw and honest about how displeased I am with my progress this year but I’ve decided it’s time to stop dwelling in regret and self-doubt and just get on with it. I’m excited for what lies ahead and approach this year with faith and confidence.

Love Always,

Shadz xo

What do I want to do within the next 365 days?

2018 has been a rollercoaster of a year. Some elements were amazing, others I have learnt valuable lessons from. Nevertheless I am blessed that I have made it successfully through another year. I have strengthened relationships in all aspects of my life, grown on a personal level and developed a whole new skill set that I never even knew existed. I still have a long way to go to reach the person I want to be but I believe that will be an everlasting journey through life.

So what do I want to achieve this year? Many set new years resolutions, and some do achieve every single one of them, and I can’t wait for the day that I meet every single person who has completely smashed those resolutions. In all honesty, I told myself last year that I would be exercising everyday, eating healthy, reading constantly and looking after my mindset everyday. In short, I haven’t done any of those to the max. Luckily for me, I recognised that those targets were perhaps a little to overboard, and not very SMART. So this year I have made targets more reachable and hopefully more relatable to what I am physically and mentally able to achieve. Here we go!

1) Pass A-Levels (with flying colours)

2) Start University!!!!!

3) Write and read more

4) Practice gratitude and general mindfulness

5) Give more

6) Save money

7) Learn to drive

8) Best to last: Spend more time with loved ones

Some of my goals are pretty personal, but others are quite general, so I hope you all can relate to them!

Happy New Year and bring on 2019!!!

Love Always,

Shadz xo