We made it!

Happy New Year friends!!!! Last year was tough, I think we all can agree on that. Some may say that it was the worst year of their lifetime. Who would have though that it would be illegal to meet up with friends, hug people or to have people around your house. But before you write off the year 2020, remember this, if you’re reading this right now, you survived it, even if that’s all you did. You may not have reached your fitness goals. you weight goals, your financial goals or your educational goals but you’re here and I’m happy that you are.

I’m not even going to begin to bother set any particular new years resolutions, not out of demotivation, but I want to save myself the pressure. Not that there’s anything wrong with doing so. After the year we’ve all had, I think I can wait a few months before I start setting myself harsh targets. 2020 has affected every single person on this earth in some way shape or form, and for the first time in my lifetime, a year long ‘thing’ has happened that has impacted every life on this earth. That’s something we can tell our children and grandchildren in the future! But if I just set myself ONE new years resolution, it would be this, to not be so hard on myself.

I look forward to hopefully being able to see my love ones more this year, to new beginnings, to new eye opening experiences, to meeting new people, going new places and learning new things.

I thank God for bringing me through 2020. Stay safe my friends!

Love Always,

Shadz xo

Quarantine Talks: Let’s be honest: Being home and the reality of living away.

It’s probably obvious that because of the pandemic I have had to leave university early and come back home. But do I like being here? Or would I rather be there?

The short answer to my title is yes. I am a total homebird. Now don’t get me wrong, I absolutely love university, I love the independence and the responsibility of being able to choose what to do and when to do it. I’m an adult so it’s not to say that I don’t get a lot of freedom at home, because obviously I do, but it’s different at university. I can only speak for myself but when I’m at home, I wouldn’t get up at 3am and go for a walk with my friends – not because I’m not allowed, but it would be weird, for me. At uni, me and my flatmates did that plenty of times, not alone of course, that’s too far for me. But certainly with my friends I would, and it wouldn’t be weird. At university, I choose to eat what I want, when I want, regardless of what anyone in my flat is doing. I choose when I shower and how long for (en-suite benefits), I choose when I want to shop and what I want to shop for, I get to buy what I want to buy. In essence, I do what I want, when I want without it affecting anybody. And that’s exactly why I prefer being at home.

I love the hustle and bustle of family life, I love cooking for my family, I love sitting around the table, laughing and making jokes. I eventually love the sound of someone running to the bathroom even when I’d planned to go in, I love hearing my mum scream “DEL DEL WHERE ARE YOU!” even if it’s just to ask what chores I’ve done today. I love the silly and sometimes annoying altercations with my little siblings. I love hearing my big brother blasting out his music out full volume from his bedroom. I love hearing the deafening sound of my dad sneezing and snoring on the couch ever so often. Now most of these things may seem strange to love, but what I didn’t understand when I left to university is that I wouldn’t have these things anymore. You just don’t have it. The things that maybe you would have seen as being inconvienient at the time, end up being the things you miss. And I miss them when I’m away.

So yes, I do miss being at home when I’m at uni perhaps more so than I miss uni when I’m at home. And I’m glad I’m home for the time being.

Uni students – do you prefer home or uni?

Love Always,

Shadz xo

Why I chose to study English Literature?

Between year 10 and 12, I was set on studying psychology at university. My original goal was to be a psychologist but about three weeks before sending off my personal statement my plans changed. I had already half written of my psychology personal statement and it occured to me that I wasn’t actually that interested in studying psychology for the long term anymore. After my first year of studying English literature at A-level and working in a tutoring company for a year, I developed an interest in both writing argumentative essays and also in teaching. I spoke to a lot of people who were primary school teachers and they said English would be a great, core subject to do at university if I wanted to go into teaching.

So I changed my personal statement (which was A LOT easier to write) and applied to study English rather than psychology. It was hands down one of the best decisions I have ever made. I probably would have got through studying Psychology – relucantly – or maybe I would have enjoyed it. But I’m glad I chose English! It can be long and stressful sometimes with endless novels, plays and poetry to read and also critical interpretations to look through but I do not regret my choice one bit!

When coming to university it’s important to pick what you love! You don’t want to be stuck doing a subject you don’t genuinely enjoy or have a strong interest in! Your career will work itself out!

Love Always,

Shadz xo

Take Time

Yesterday, I went back to my home town to visit my family. I havent’t seen them since Christmas time and had been missing them all so much. Despite having tons and tons of reading to do, having some events to squeeze in and having some jobs to run, I was determined to see my family this weekend.

I think it’s important to take time to do things that we genuinely want to do. Not because we have to, but because we want to. We get so caught up in doing the things on our list, sticking to our schedule and being productive that we forget to take time to be with the people who really matter.

As a university student, time isn’t always on my side. Whether it be completing endless reading lists, rushing between lectures or deciding which societies to go to, it’s so easy to forget where I really want to be. And that’s at home. Don’t get me wrong, I love uni, I love my course and all the wonderful friends I have made, but there really is no place like home.

Remember to take time out form your busy schedule to do the things that really matter this weekend!

Love Always,

Shadz xo